wow wow wow.. a month or so has past.. lost touch wif bloggin tis days.. haha.. nth much to update.. as the month has past too fast.. A MONTH of late nites.. A MONTH.. of hopes n dreams.. A MONTH.. yesh.. A MONTH!! sigh.. BUT.... no one believes.. no one will eva believes hard work is paid for tis month.. ya.. i cant blame anyone.. cos hard work is not shown in the work i haf done.. in the work i haf prepared.. wat can i say.. a month ago.. i lost the battle.. hopin i will be able to make up for it.. but again.. i lost.. LOST totally.. seeing ppl excel.. admiring the work they produced.. but mine.. i haf nth.. nth nice to show.. nth worth tokin abt.. who can feel wat i m feelin now?? i can encourage ppl.. gif dem the support.. but who can gif me dat?? yesh i do haf one.. one n onli one i supposed.. dat nite after my presentation.. i called her.. felt so much beta after tokin to her..
she's doin fine in her studies.. n her passion for her course has grew deeper i supposed.. reali happy to noe my best pal is still the same.. n tokin to her reali makes my worries and sadness disappeared.. haha.. so far in sight.. yet so near in heart.. i tinks she feels the same too.. hafing her around reali makes me able to stand up again in the crowd.. jux wana take tis opportunity to say "Thanx pal.. i noe u r there whenever i need help.." haha.. hope she sees it..
sometimes.. when i'm surrounded by lotsa frienz.. i realised lots of things.. i realised u haf no one to lean on when u r tired mentally.. no one will feel the same way as u do.. no one gifs u the encouragement u hope to get.. sometimes.. i can't blame anyone.. cos everyone got their things to be buzi wif.. n things around dem has taken for granted.. i dun mean to depend on anyone.. but at least someone who understds without sayin much.. n reali got wat u mean.. i begin searchin for someone who can actually understds wat i'm goin thru.. is somehow a miracle dat someone who doesn't takes the same course as me.. doesn't haf the same circle of frienz.. doesn't go thru the same experience.. can understds the whole picture within a short conversation.. but ppl around me.. needs explanations after explanations.. before they got what u mean.. maybe.. outsiders haf a beta picture.. yesh.. i think so..
haha.. look like some story telling session for tis entry.. but all is true... at least it is reali happening to me .. has anyone really makes u wana understd more abt him/her?? i do.. not abt love relationships.. but pure friendship.. i realised.. when bottom up things.. sharing an opinion makes u sees things u did not or nv tot before.. cos no ones tinks exactly the same.. sometimes ideas n opinons helps u to understands beta.. but some choose to believe their own way.. i dun blame dem.. maybe they yet to find the rite one to share wif.. yesh.. mux be the rite person.. n is really hard.. n i dun consider myself the rite one too.. all i noe is.. when oneself is truthful to another.. someday u will find someone who understd u without u saying much...
yup.. dat's abt it.. it is really good typin it down..
